WHY CAN'T THIS BE EASY?

Why is it that I can't control myself? WHY? Snacking when I'm not hungry...ugh...what is the reason for it? I need to get to the bottom of this or I'm never going to lose the weight - ever.

I don't have the motivation to do anything other than walk - and that needs to change. I need to get my ass sweating and NOW.

Why does food have to be so much MORE than fuel - it tastes good, it looks good, it smells good.

I sooooo didn't want to be "that" FAT Mom that didn't want to do certain things, b/c she was FAT. But this is me - and damn it, I need to change it.

How do skinny people not eat? Are they not hungry? Do they not think about food ALL. THE. TIME.? UGHHHHH!